I looked at the calendar and realized that I am a very bad blogger as I last posted in June and now it's ALMOST JULY!
Can we say busy?
Yes we can!
This has been a very busy summer!
So Far this summer:
The kids have gone camping twice. Jaron caught 1 fish, Janea 3 fish. They had a great time with their grandparents and I am grateful for the time they have with them.
The Firstborn well, she is now officially a TEENAGER! I am not old enough to have a teenager! I can't believe how mature and awesome she is and I am looking forward to seeing how she will grow and change.
Dan and I celebrated our 14th wedding anniversary by going out for a steak dinner and seeing Monster's University without the kids.! It's amazing how far we have come in our marriage and seeing how much better friends and partners we are as the years go by.
We spent the 4th with friends and had fun lighting off fireworks and such, Jayden isn't a huge fan of the noise though.
Jayden has moved into pullups and we are beginning the potty training process.
School starts for me the 5th but for the big kids on the 15th. So we are gearing up for the new school year and hoping we get everything done!
It's a crazy life, but it's mine!
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Tuesday, July 23, 2013
Sunday, April 21, 2013
"Sticking" Together
"Sticks and Stones May Break My Bones but words will never hurt me"
remember that rhyme? It isn't true...words do hurt but this post isn't about the words it's about Sticks.
Sticks....lots of sticks!
We have 4 large trees in our front yard. We have one large tree in our back yard. We had a very snowy winter...which means lots of sticks have fallen off of our trees and into our yard.
The husband hates sticks! Especially when he is mowing our yard. They kick up, poke, clog the mower. So every time he mows he sends the 10 year old around the yard to look for sticks.
The 10 year old isn't the greatest at finding all the sticks...but he gets a lot of them. I too went around looking for the sticks and Dan helped a lot too!
The big question then becomes what are we going to do with all these STICKS! It's usually a really high pile!
This weekend we took care of the sticks by burning them. In the past we have burned them in the fireplace...a horrible messy job that drive me as the mom crazy! There will be stick particles and dirt everywhere.
The husband knows that I hate this so we went out and bought a fire-pit this weekend. And we burned sticks yesterday...for almost 2 hours! We had a lot of sticks.
Dan was busy mowing the lawn, so I got put in charge of manning the fire. I really don't fire. I was badly burned as a young child and fire makes me really nervous. But the job needed to be done and I am a much more logical choice to man the job then the 10 year old. The firstborn was off doing the drama thing at her school.
So yesterday the lawn got mowed, the sticks got burned, we worked together. It was good...I smelled terrible last night and was super tired but I felt like we had accomplished something.
On a cute note...the toddler got a lawnmower for his birthday from Grandma and Grandpa and he was going around and around the house yesterday just like daddy mowing the lawn! I wish I had had my camera out to capture the cuteness of it all!
remember that rhyme? It isn't true...words do hurt but this post isn't about the words it's about Sticks.
Sticks....lots of sticks!
We have 4 large trees in our front yard. We have one large tree in our back yard. We had a very snowy winter...which means lots of sticks have fallen off of our trees and into our yard.
The husband hates sticks! Especially when he is mowing our yard. They kick up, poke, clog the mower. So every time he mows he sends the 10 year old around the yard to look for sticks.
The 10 year old isn't the greatest at finding all the sticks...but he gets a lot of them. I too went around looking for the sticks and Dan helped a lot too!
The big question then becomes what are we going to do with all these STICKS! It's usually a really high pile!
This weekend we took care of the sticks by burning them. In the past we have burned them in the fireplace...a horrible messy job that drive me as the mom crazy! There will be stick particles and dirt everywhere.
The husband knows that I hate this so we went out and bought a fire-pit this weekend. And we burned sticks yesterday...for almost 2 hours! We had a lot of sticks.
Dan was busy mowing the lawn, so I got put in charge of manning the fire. I really don't fire. I was badly burned as a young child and fire makes me really nervous. But the job needed to be done and I am a much more logical choice to man the job then the 10 year old. The firstborn was off doing the drama thing at her school.
So yesterday the lawn got mowed, the sticks got burned, we worked together. It was good...I smelled terrible last night and was super tired but I felt like we had accomplished something.
On a cute note...the toddler got a lawnmower for his birthday from Grandma and Grandpa and he was going around and around the house yesterday just like daddy mowing the lawn! I wish I had had my camera out to capture the cuteness of it all!
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
Be willing
Sometimes things change and you have to be flexible.
Sometimes you won't have things fall into place the way that you want it to go.
Sometimes no matter how hard you try it just isn't working and you have to do something else to fix it.
I've been dealing with this over the last few months at work.
I had BIG GOALS for the year...yes I am "Miss I Gotta Plan" but while I am a Lead teacher we co-teach at my school.
My plans and my co-teachers implementation of those plans wasn't happening. I mean I had 2 co-teachers at the beginning of the school year, within 4 weeks it was apparent that one of them was not going to work out. This teacher wasn't pulling their weight, and didn't have their heart in the job. Within 6 weeks this teacher was no longer working with me.
The other co-teacher started out strong but quickly spiraled into a never ending pile of complaining and feeling overwhelmed. I was dealing with 24 children and a co-teacher who couldn't seem to help me fix the room. She tried, I will say that for her, she worked really hard, but I feel like she was overwhelmed. So the room suffered, I suffered, I was stressed, I was Failing bad at this. It was hard, it was exhausting and I felt like I was drowning in a sea of I'm not doing a good enough job.
My bosses needed to make changes, staff was hired, hours were changed and I got to regroup. I became a member of a team of 4. I went to part-time hours and got to spend more time with Jayden and got my house more under control. I got to regroup, but I also went to a low place emotionally, I mean I often find my identity by my job...I am Miss Erin, the teacher, what would I be if I am not that.
I was tired, stressed, and feeling like a failure. I was in that low place. That unhappy place that I am working so hard to pull myself out of right now.
The break helped. I was able to guide the team and get them comfortable, I was able to do a good job at work and regroup. I was able to feel needed and I was much less stressed!
During the 1st week of January, my boss told me that she might need to move me to another room. By the 2nd week I received an email letting me know that I was needed in another room and that I would be back to full time hours..
So here I am back to working 38.5 hours a week. I am able to do what I love, teach young children. I am not in the age that I prefer but they are a good group of kiddos. I'm team teaching with a young woman who is a behavioral specialist. She takes the data, she helps with the behavior management plans and I get to do what I love, plan fun and exciting lessons, create meaningful art, talk about fun things and bring my input into the classroom.
It's good. However, if I hadn't been willing to take a step back and grow from the experience of another mom, who is also my boss, I might have missed out on the growth that I am having and be in a totally different place that might not be as good.
That's one thing I am trying to do this year. I'm trying to learn to Be Willing.
I need to be willing to see how I can grow from criticism. More often then not, it will help me to be better.
I need to be willing to let go and not try to make something work, to ask for help when I need it!
I need to be willing to stretch myself and see that a change can be a good thing, not a punishment.
I need to be willing to smile, to put on a happy face when I might not want to!
I need to be willing to be used as God would want me to be, to see His guiding hand and TRUST Him to be in control of the situation.
Are you ready to be willing too? I hope so. It's a challenge but exciting all at the same time!
Sometimes you won't have things fall into place the way that you want it to go.
Sometimes no matter how hard you try it just isn't working and you have to do something else to fix it.
I've been dealing with this over the last few months at work.
I had BIG GOALS for the year...yes I am "Miss I Gotta Plan" but while I am a Lead teacher we co-teach at my school.
My plans and my co-teachers implementation of those plans wasn't happening. I mean I had 2 co-teachers at the beginning of the school year, within 4 weeks it was apparent that one of them was not going to work out. This teacher wasn't pulling their weight, and didn't have their heart in the job. Within 6 weeks this teacher was no longer working with me.
The other co-teacher started out strong but quickly spiraled into a never ending pile of complaining and feeling overwhelmed. I was dealing with 24 children and a co-teacher who couldn't seem to help me fix the room. She tried, I will say that for her, she worked really hard, but I feel like she was overwhelmed. So the room suffered, I suffered, I was stressed, I was Failing bad at this. It was hard, it was exhausting and I felt like I was drowning in a sea of I'm not doing a good enough job.
My bosses needed to make changes, staff was hired, hours were changed and I got to regroup. I became a member of a team of 4. I went to part-time hours and got to spend more time with Jayden and got my house more under control. I got to regroup, but I also went to a low place emotionally, I mean I often find my identity by my job...I am Miss Erin, the teacher, what would I be if I am not that.
I was tired, stressed, and feeling like a failure. I was in that low place. That unhappy place that I am working so hard to pull myself out of right now.
The break helped. I was able to guide the team and get them comfortable, I was able to do a good job at work and regroup. I was able to feel needed and I was much less stressed!
During the 1st week of January, my boss told me that she might need to move me to another room. By the 2nd week I received an email letting me know that I was needed in another room and that I would be back to full time hours..
So here I am back to working 38.5 hours a week. I am able to do what I love, teach young children. I am not in the age that I prefer but they are a good group of kiddos. I'm team teaching with a young woman who is a behavioral specialist. She takes the data, she helps with the behavior management plans and I get to do what I love, plan fun and exciting lessons, create meaningful art, talk about fun things and bring my input into the classroom.
It's good. However, if I hadn't been willing to take a step back and grow from the experience of another mom, who is also my boss, I might have missed out on the growth that I am having and be in a totally different place that might not be as good.
That's one thing I am trying to do this year. I'm trying to learn to Be Willing.
I need to be willing to see how I can grow from criticism. More often then not, it will help me to be better.
I need to be willing to let go and not try to make something work, to ask for help when I need it!
I need to be willing to stretch myself and see that a change can be a good thing, not a punishment.
I need to be willing to smile, to put on a happy face when I might not want to!
I need to be willing to be used as God would want me to be, to see His guiding hand and TRUST Him to be in control of the situation.
Are you ready to be willing too? I hope so. It's a challenge but exciting all at the same time!
Saturday, February 4, 2012
What a Week
I have had a VERY long week for different reasons. It's not necessarily been a bad week but a very long one.
Monday:
Today was more stressful than normal because a coworker lost her job today. It was the right move for our school and it was deserved but it's always stressful knowing something is coming and then seeing it play out. Then you also have the added stress of how that person is going to react to the news. I hope that it continues to be a good and easy transition.
Tuesday:
We had a good day in my class, the kids had a good day at school, we had an okay dinner, life was normal till around 6:30...then I started feeling bad. Very thankful Jayden went down for a nap easily and slept okay. Momma was definitely not up to snuff.
Wednesday:
I woke up feeling AWFUL. Wednesday is also my highest number day at school and knowing this I made an attempt to go to work. My bosses could totally see I wasnt' feeling good and they let me go home early. I got home around 1:00 and after eating some lunch I slept for the entire afternoon. I was so thankful for rest, for a great babysitter to watch Jayden, and then for AWANA that night for the big kids. I was able to rest and start to feeling better.
Thursday:
My day was fine...but yet again I inserted my foot in my mouth in regards to my feelings. Dan doesn't react well to things that I say sometimes and I made a statement that he didn't find good and it made for a stressful evening betweent he two of us. Marriage can be so hard sometimes. I am thankful that we have worked through it but I hate that feeling when we are in the middle of it all.
Friday:
Long day at work...due to rain! It rained all day long! Rainy days when your stuck inside is more challenging especially with a lot of boys in the classroom. Dan also had a more stressful commute since he took the van and the van's windshield wipers don't always work and he wanted me to be safe. Once he got home we all went out for dinner at Buffalo Wild Wings and boy was it a nice meal together without anyone having to cook. Another bonus--PAYDAY!!!
The weekend is full of birthday's, friends, family and hopefully I will get all the laundry done too.
Monday:
Today was more stressful than normal because a coworker lost her job today. It was the right move for our school and it was deserved but it's always stressful knowing something is coming and then seeing it play out. Then you also have the added stress of how that person is going to react to the news. I hope that it continues to be a good and easy transition.
Tuesday:
We had a good day in my class, the kids had a good day at school, we had an okay dinner, life was normal till around 6:30...then I started feeling bad. Very thankful Jayden went down for a nap easily and slept okay. Momma was definitely not up to snuff.
Wednesday:
I woke up feeling AWFUL. Wednesday is also my highest number day at school and knowing this I made an attempt to go to work. My bosses could totally see I wasnt' feeling good and they let me go home early. I got home around 1:00 and after eating some lunch I slept for the entire afternoon. I was so thankful for rest, for a great babysitter to watch Jayden, and then for AWANA that night for the big kids. I was able to rest and start to feeling better.
Thursday:
My day was fine...but yet again I inserted my foot in my mouth in regards to my feelings. Dan doesn't react well to things that I say sometimes and I made a statement that he didn't find good and it made for a stressful evening betweent he two of us. Marriage can be so hard sometimes. I am thankful that we have worked through it but I hate that feeling when we are in the middle of it all.
Friday:
Long day at work...due to rain! It rained all day long! Rainy days when your stuck inside is more challenging especially with a lot of boys in the classroom. Dan also had a more stressful commute since he took the van and the van's windshield wipers don't always work and he wanted me to be safe. Once he got home we all went out for dinner at Buffalo Wild Wings and boy was it a nice meal together without anyone having to cook. Another bonus--PAYDAY!!!
The weekend is full of birthday's, friends, family and hopefully I will get all the laundry done too.
Monday, September 26, 2011
The Helpfulness of Being Prepared
Now that I have gone back to work it's been important for me to stay on top of little things.
Case in point...lunches for the family. On Monday-Wednesday I have to be out the door pretty early and that makes for a more rushed morning but I have figured out to pack out the lunch stuff into small packages on the weekend so all I have to do is grab and go...and it works so well!
I've also discovered that I can get all the baby stuff together the night before and I even sometimes pack it in the car the night before so all I have to do is grab the carrier and the bottle that must be refrigerated before I go. Makes life easier.
I also have been working on signing all paperwork from the kids early the day they bring it home so I don't have to worry about it the next morning...we're still perfecting this one but it is nice to have a few minutes in the morning where I can do things like blog instead of running around the house like a chicken with my head cut off!
Case in point...lunches for the family. On Monday-Wednesday I have to be out the door pretty early and that makes for a more rushed morning but I have figured out to pack out the lunch stuff into small packages on the weekend so all I have to do is grab and go...and it works so well!
I've also discovered that I can get all the baby stuff together the night before and I even sometimes pack it in the car the night before so all I have to do is grab the carrier and the bottle that must be refrigerated before I go. Makes life easier.
I also have been working on signing all paperwork from the kids early the day they bring it home so I don't have to worry about it the next morning...we're still perfecting this one but it is nice to have a few minutes in the morning where I can do things like blog instead of running around the house like a chicken with my head cut off!
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Thank you Dear
Thursday and Fridays are my later days at work and Dan is in charge of picking up the baby and helping with dinner.
Tonight I came home to cooked food, a slightly cranky baby and happy big kids.
Thanks Dan!
Tonight I came home to cooked food, a slightly cranky baby and happy big kids.
Thanks Dan!
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Job Update
I'm officially back to work after taking almost 7 months off!
It's been a good first week, I'm still learning the ropes, we have a HUGE class...like over 15 every day. That is both a good and bad thing...it's good because there is lots to do, stuff to learn and all...it's bad because today we had 22 kids and it was CRAZY!!!! Looks like Wednesdays are the highest day of the week.
Baby is doing good at the babysitter...she loves him to pieces and so do her girls...so I am happy about that...and Jayden is taking bottles like a champ and I am able to pump at work and I am producing a good supply to take the next day...also good!
I'm excited to see what the upcoming months hold...learning the routine and working hard...so if I blog a little less that's why...
It's been a good first week, I'm still learning the ropes, we have a HUGE class...like over 15 every day. That is both a good and bad thing...it's good because there is lots to do, stuff to learn and all...it's bad because today we had 22 kids and it was CRAZY!!!! Looks like Wednesdays are the highest day of the week.
Baby is doing good at the babysitter...she loves him to pieces and so do her girls...so I am happy about that...and Jayden is taking bottles like a champ and I am able to pump at work and I am producing a good supply to take the next day...also good!
I'm excited to see what the upcoming months hold...learning the routine and working hard...so if I blog a little less that's why...
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Still waiting...
But waiting may turn into a good thing.
Several months ago I sent my cover letter and resume to a school over in Leawood. I never heard anything at all and I assumed it was not to be.
Well, out of the blue yesterday I received a call from the director to come in and fill out an application. And they are checking my references and want me to come and teach a lesson.
So now I just need to get a babysitter for Friday morning!
This school follows a schedule similar to the big kids schedule is not a "daycare" and is doing the kind of teaching I enjoy...so I am hopeful!
I've been waiting on God to show me what He wants for me...this may be it! I'm praying...will you pray for me as I seek this possible job?
Several months ago I sent my cover letter and resume to a school over in Leawood. I never heard anything at all and I assumed it was not to be.
Well, out of the blue yesterday I received a call from the director to come in and fill out an application. And they are checking my references and want me to come and teach a lesson.
So now I just need to get a babysitter for Friday morning!
This school follows a schedule similar to the big kids schedule is not a "daycare" and is doing the kind of teaching I enjoy...so I am hopeful!
I've been waiting on God to show me what He wants for me...this may be it! I'm praying...will you pray for me as I seek this possible job?
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Step by Step
Step by step I'm getting closer to the finish line at work.
I have 3 weeks and a day left.
My belly feels like it gets bigger everyday.
The tables and chair feel like they are getting lower everyday.
The hours while constant seem to get longer everyday.
I truly think that the kids in my class are getting crazier everyday.
I'm ready to not worry about work for awhile.
I'm ready to be able to take a nap when the urge hits me.
I'm ready to get ready for baby.
Step by Step we're approaching the finish line...and the starting point of the next great adventure!
I have 3 weeks and a day left.
My belly feels like it gets bigger everyday.
The tables and chair feel like they are getting lower everyday.
The hours while constant seem to get longer everyday.
I truly think that the kids in my class are getting crazier everyday.
I'm ready to not worry about work for awhile.
I'm ready to be able to take a nap when the urge hits me.
I'm ready to get ready for baby.
Step by Step we're approaching the finish line...and the starting point of the next great adventure!
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
ByeBye Christmas
Yesterday I took down the Christmas Tree and most of the Christmas Decorations.
Yesterday was the last day of Christmas break for the kiddos.
Today we are back to a "normal" routine!
Today we are all back to school or work.
So long Christmas...see you next year!
Yesterday was the last day of Christmas break for the kiddos.
Today we are back to a "normal" routine!
Today we are all back to school or work.
So long Christmas...see you next year!
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Christmas Vacation...How I miss you
I miss getting days off between Christmas and New Years.
I miss the time to recharge my batteries.
I miss hanging out with my kids enjoying things we got for Christmas.
I miss it.
I really do.
*Sigh*
I miss the time to recharge my batteries.
I miss hanging out with my kids enjoying things we got for Christmas.
I miss it.
I really do.
*Sigh*
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
"Holiday" Program
We're having our "Holiday" program tomorrow...not a Christmas Program a Holiday Program.
The kids will sing Christmas songs...about Santa, Trees, and Bells...no nativity at all.
We will sing a Hanukah song...no baby Jesus in the manger.
A "holiday" a time where kids get lots of stuff but miss the one thing that they really need...and I can't really talk about it...I read a book about the Baby in the Manger today and not one of my kids could tell me what that meant...
I'm missing the joy of Christmas and the celebration of the Birth of a Savior...where I work it's all Santa and stuff...no joy...just stuff.
It's really Sad...and empy feeling...I'm thankful that I have joy in my CHRISTMAS...its more than just a Holiday!
The kids will sing Christmas songs...about Santa, Trees, and Bells...no nativity at all.
We will sing a Hanukah song...no baby Jesus in the manger.
A "holiday" a time where kids get lots of stuff but miss the one thing that they really need...and I can't really talk about it...I read a book about the Baby in the Manger today and not one of my kids could tell me what that meant...
I'm missing the joy of Christmas and the celebration of the Birth of a Savior...where I work it's all Santa and stuff...no joy...just stuff.
It's really Sad...and empy feeling...I'm thankful that I have joy in my CHRISTMAS...its more than just a Holiday!
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Working Momma Woes
I'm a working Mom.
I've been a working mom for most of my kids lives and for the most part it works for us.
It wasn't working this morning.
I had a big ol helping of Momma Guilt...over my current work hours.
I've been blessed in the past to have job hours conducive to school hours. Also I have had the privilige of having my children in the same school where I teach. This is no longer the case.
The kids are now home before me...way before me.
Janea really doesn't like my hours or having a babysitter in the house...She does love our babysitter but it's not the same as having mom home.
She laid the hurt down pretty hard this morning.
My feelings were very hurt, and the wound of working late was very raw this morning.
I'll admit it, I broke, cried, and wanted to do nothing more than quit...but I didn't quit.
I will be able to quit around the time of the baby but for now I am where I am. With lousy hours...that are hard, but we will make them work. I'm blessed to have a job...even when the blessing doesn't seem that great
I've been a working mom for most of my kids lives and for the most part it works for us.
It wasn't working this morning.
I had a big ol helping of Momma Guilt...over my current work hours.
I've been blessed in the past to have job hours conducive to school hours. Also I have had the privilige of having my children in the same school where I teach. This is no longer the case.
The kids are now home before me...way before me.
Janea really doesn't like my hours or having a babysitter in the house...She does love our babysitter but it's not the same as having mom home.
She laid the hurt down pretty hard this morning.
My feelings were very hurt, and the wound of working late was very raw this morning.
I'll admit it, I broke, cried, and wanted to do nothing more than quit...but I didn't quit.
I will be able to quit around the time of the baby but for now I am where I am. With lousy hours...that are hard, but we will make them work. I'm blessed to have a job...even when the blessing doesn't seem that great
Friday, December 3, 2010
Thanks I needed That!
I've not been feeling real good this week.
I've been tired, crabby, not sleeping really well, and just feeling blah!
I won't call in sick for general yuckiness or anything...that isn't what sick days are for. Plus, I don't want to take advantage of my works generosity in giving time off. And they are good about trying to be accomodating for doctor's appointments or stuff like that. I did really want to call in and just have a chill day but I couldn't justify it and I wasn't really sick and if I called in sick that would be lying and that is wrong.
Jaron got sick this week. Out of the blue. Fever, coughing, ear goop, the whole nine yards! So I called in to stay home with him...a valid reason to stay home! So Jaron...thanks for getting sick! It was nice to have a day off yesterday and a morning off today...I think I needed it...I'm feeling more rested and not as yucky!
Is it wrong to be thankful for sick children?
I've been tired, crabby, not sleeping really well, and just feeling blah!
I won't call in sick for general yuckiness or anything...that isn't what sick days are for. Plus, I don't want to take advantage of my works generosity in giving time off. And they are good about trying to be accomodating for doctor's appointments or stuff like that. I did really want to call in and just have a chill day but I couldn't justify it and I wasn't really sick and if I called in sick that would be lying and that is wrong.
Jaron got sick this week. Out of the blue. Fever, coughing, ear goop, the whole nine yards! So I called in to stay home with him...a valid reason to stay home! So Jaron...thanks for getting sick! It was nice to have a day off yesterday and a morning off today...I think I needed it...I'm feeling more rested and not as yucky!
Is it wrong to be thankful for sick children?
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Aaahhh...
That's the sigh of relief from me...
I am done working until Monday....and boy am I glad!
Tomorrow, we are cooking and hosting my family for Thanksgiving. Looking forward to it.
Tonight I am going to hang out and relax....hoping for a better nights sleep tonight.
Thankful for Thanksgiving and getting to relax at home!
I am done working until Monday....and boy am I glad!
Tomorrow, we are cooking and hosting my family for Thanksgiving. Looking forward to it.
Tonight I am going to hang out and relax....hoping for a better nights sleep tonight.
Thankful for Thanksgiving and getting to relax at home!
Thursday, November 18, 2010
What a Week!
It's only Thursday but I feel like it should be SATURDAY!
I'm tired...super tired....overly tired. I'm sleeping but I don't wake up rested. Not sure as to why, probably has to do with our busy schedule and the baby but who knows.
We have had an eventful week...
Monday Janea missed the bus in the morning...we didn't get out the door in time and the bus drove right past the house....so parent drop-off involved 2 schools! Well, she rode the bus home and got dropped off at the stop far from the house and was walking home when the bus driver stopped the bus and asked her where she actually lives and when she told the bus driver the driver said that she can now be picked up right across the street from the house! PTL! Now I don't have to drive her over, its across the street and if we are running a little behind schedule she can still run and make it! Dan also has made it his mission to have us accomplish a small project everyday afterwork...which is fine...except I think that's why I am more tired in the evenings.
Tuesday was a long day...full of crabby children, and poor listeners in my classroom. I have kids in my class who think that they run the world. It's hard too because we cater to a clientle that is richer than most and so their kids get everything they want and are a little spoiled...to the point of rottenness sometime. It's all I can do to bite my tongue and not get more frustrated than I already am...I so need a different job.
Wednesdays are long days...and yesterday was a VERY long day. I took Jaron to school as normal and then went in to make sure that he got his picture taken...it was retake day and he had missed picture day because he had Strep. Then I went to Target to look for a new coat for the boy as his hoodie isn't super warm and he isn't wanting to wear his winter coat yet...I found a nice fleece jacket that is warm and cozy on Clearance! WAHOO! I also picked up another longsleeve larger shirt to wear under my work shirts. So I didn't go home after dropping off the kid and then I went to work and worked till 6:30 and then we had our Dave Ramsey class last night so I didn't even get home until almost 9:00...made for a very long 11 hour day!
So I'm hoping for a good day today. Looking forward to coming home and resting tonight...I may go to bed before the kids...who knows!
I'm tired...super tired....overly tired. I'm sleeping but I don't wake up rested. Not sure as to why, probably has to do with our busy schedule and the baby but who knows.
We have had an eventful week...
Monday Janea missed the bus in the morning...we didn't get out the door in time and the bus drove right past the house....so parent drop-off involved 2 schools! Well, she rode the bus home and got dropped off at the stop far from the house and was walking home when the bus driver stopped the bus and asked her where she actually lives and when she told the bus driver the driver said that she can now be picked up right across the street from the house! PTL! Now I don't have to drive her over, its across the street and if we are running a little behind schedule she can still run and make it! Dan also has made it his mission to have us accomplish a small project everyday afterwork...which is fine...except I think that's why I am more tired in the evenings.
Tuesday was a long day...full of crabby children, and poor listeners in my classroom. I have kids in my class who think that they run the world. It's hard too because we cater to a clientle that is richer than most and so their kids get everything they want and are a little spoiled...to the point of rottenness sometime. It's all I can do to bite my tongue and not get more frustrated than I already am...I so need a different job.
Wednesdays are long days...and yesterday was a VERY long day. I took Jaron to school as normal and then went in to make sure that he got his picture taken...it was retake day and he had missed picture day because he had Strep. Then I went to Target to look for a new coat for the boy as his hoodie isn't super warm and he isn't wanting to wear his winter coat yet...I found a nice fleece jacket that is warm and cozy on Clearance! WAHOO! I also picked up another longsleeve larger shirt to wear under my work shirts. So I didn't go home after dropping off the kid and then I went to work and worked till 6:30 and then we had our Dave Ramsey class last night so I didn't even get home until almost 9:00...made for a very long 11 hour day!
So I'm hoping for a good day today. Looking forward to coming home and resting tonight...I may go to bed before the kids...who knows!
Friday, October 22, 2010
Whew....is it 6:30 yet?
What a week!
It's Friday finally! Hooray! I'm in love with Friday's...they are the best day ever! I just wish it was 6:30 on Friday...that would mean I am done with work for the week...instead of almost 8:00 in the morning and I am getting ready for work. The kiddos have school activities tonight so it will be a busy evening too.
My job is improving some, I think it helps that I don't feel quite so bad all the time anymore now that I am in my 2nd trimester. My energy is coming back and that is helping with my mood. I will still not say that I love my job...its just a job... and I don't feel like I am doing anything really extraordinary or using my full teaching skills at all but its regular income and it's not the end of the world. I have some really challenging students and I am thankful that they will be transitioning up to the next class in a week! Then a get some new kids and it should hopefully be a different room dynamic and I am hoping a good one. Right now we are working on trying to figure out how long I have to stay at the job before the baby so that I can be a stay at home mom for a while....probably not forever, but for a while...
Jaron's birthday is TUESDAY!!! He is over the moon excited about turning 8!
Baby J is fine...I think...I'm starting to feel flutterings and such...it makes it all seem so much more real. I also am able to eat more and not feel sick all the time and that is a big help...the yuck taste in my mouth is also leaving and for that I am so grateful! Being pregnant in my 30's is nothing like being pregnant in my 20's.
Thursday may be a big day for us...I'll keep you posted....
Well, I have to go and eat and get ready to leave for work soon...I still wish it was the end of the day rather than the beginning but oh well!
It's Friday finally! Hooray! I'm in love with Friday's...they are the best day ever! I just wish it was 6:30 on Friday...that would mean I am done with work for the week...instead of almost 8:00 in the morning and I am getting ready for work. The kiddos have school activities tonight so it will be a busy evening too.
My job is improving some, I think it helps that I don't feel quite so bad all the time anymore now that I am in my 2nd trimester. My energy is coming back and that is helping with my mood. I will still not say that I love my job...its just a job... and I don't feel like I am doing anything really extraordinary or using my full teaching skills at all but its regular income and it's not the end of the world. I have some really challenging students and I am thankful that they will be transitioning up to the next class in a week! Then a get some new kids and it should hopefully be a different room dynamic and I am hoping a good one. Right now we are working on trying to figure out how long I have to stay at the job before the baby so that I can be a stay at home mom for a while....probably not forever, but for a while...
Jaron's birthday is TUESDAY!!! He is over the moon excited about turning 8!
Baby J is fine...I think...I'm starting to feel flutterings and such...it makes it all seem so much more real. I also am able to eat more and not feel sick all the time and that is a big help...the yuck taste in my mouth is also leaving and for that I am so grateful! Being pregnant in my 30's is nothing like being pregnant in my 20's.
Thursday may be a big day for us...I'll keep you posted....
Well, I have to go and eat and get ready to leave for work soon...I still wish it was the end of the day rather than the beginning but oh well!
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Thursday
It's Thursday. I know its Thursday but I really wish it was Friday!
Tonight Jaron has his 2nd Karate Class...he's so excited.
Tomorrow is my first payday at the new job...I'm so excited!
Janea is thinking of joining either newspaper club or Drama club...I'm thinking Newspaper...so is she but she has a back up plan!
The kids are settling into a school routine pretty good...we have some tweaking to do but that should happen soon.
Busy week...and a busy schedule...
Tonight Jaron has his 2nd Karate Class...he's so excited.
Tomorrow is my first payday at the new job...I'm so excited!
Janea is thinking of joining either newspaper club or Drama club...I'm thinking Newspaper...so is she but she has a back up plan!
The kids are settling into a school routine pretty good...we have some tweaking to do but that should happen soon.
Busy week...and a busy schedule...
Monday, August 30, 2010
Right Now
I'm feeling tired
I'm eating peanut butter toast.
I'm frustrated that the place i need to call isn't open until 9:30 and then i will be at work and will have to wait till 2 to call and I'm hoping I don't forget.
I'm killing time before leaving for work.
I'm not sure if I'm liking my new schedule!
I'm eating peanut butter toast.
I'm frustrated that the place i need to call isn't open until 9:30 and then i will be at work and will have to wait till 2 to call and I'm hoping I don't forget.
I'm killing time before leaving for work.
I'm not sure if I'm liking my new schedule!
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
*Gasping*
I'm overwhelmed today.
I'm feeling frustrated and sad.
I'm ANGRY and hurt and irritated and dissappointed and I feel like a human pinball machine with my emotions bouncing all over the place.
The reality of planning for the upcoming school year is feeling daunting right now. I'm an educator and there really aren't any jobs in education right now. School districts are not hiring and the positions available are being pursued by multiple candidates. My school is being closed, not because we wanted it to close but because others don't want the "hassle" of sharing space with us. They feel we "hinder" their ministries and therefore we must go...not viewing what we do as a vital ministry. At the same time, we just didn't have enough time to find a space of our own and so now I am looking for work again. It seems like every 2 years I'm on the job hunt again.
I'm also feeling frustrated with things at home. My messiness is not easily conquered. I have BAD habits and I struggle with fixing them right now. I also am struggling with responding properly to what I feel is misplaced criticism from people in my life. I know it's bad, and I am trying to rectify it and I do better with PRAISE rather than critique. I feel like the good is not focused on only the remainder that needs to be done. I can't fix this overnight and I am trying and working at it but its hard for me...really hard. I'm not a natural Stay at Home Mom...I'm not. I'm easily distracted and unfocused...I need lists and charts and yet I am overwhelmed by the length of them...I need a MAID....yeah that would fix it...no it wouldn't...I need to get into better habits. I need to train my children better too...it's a team effort not just a Me effort, but getting them to work is a challenge.
Well, I'm off to clean my Bedroom...I have to get it better so that Dan and I can rearrange our furniture when he goes on day shift next week.
I'm feeling frustrated and sad.
I'm ANGRY and hurt and irritated and dissappointed and I feel like a human pinball machine with my emotions bouncing all over the place.
The reality of planning for the upcoming school year is feeling daunting right now. I'm an educator and there really aren't any jobs in education right now. School districts are not hiring and the positions available are being pursued by multiple candidates. My school is being closed, not because we wanted it to close but because others don't want the "hassle" of sharing space with us. They feel we "hinder" their ministries and therefore we must go...not viewing what we do as a vital ministry. At the same time, we just didn't have enough time to find a space of our own and so now I am looking for work again. It seems like every 2 years I'm on the job hunt again.
I'm also feeling frustrated with things at home. My messiness is not easily conquered. I have BAD habits and I struggle with fixing them right now. I also am struggling with responding properly to what I feel is misplaced criticism from people in my life. I know it's bad, and I am trying to rectify it and I do better with PRAISE rather than critique. I feel like the good is not focused on only the remainder that needs to be done. I can't fix this overnight and I am trying and working at it but its hard for me...really hard. I'm not a natural Stay at Home Mom...I'm not. I'm easily distracted and unfocused...I need lists and charts and yet I am overwhelmed by the length of them...I need a MAID....yeah that would fix it...no it wouldn't...I need to get into better habits. I need to train my children better too...it's a team effort not just a Me effort, but getting them to work is a challenge.
Well, I'm off to clean my Bedroom...I have to get it better so that Dan and I can rearrange our furniture when he goes on day shift next week.
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