Saturday, September 25, 2010

Needing to Adjust

I'm having to make some adjustments right now.

I need to make an attitude adjustment toward things.

My job is not what I was hoping for it to be. I am not doing what I had initially interviewed for when I went in. The scheduling and things are different than any other childcare facility that I have worked. It's the starkest place I have ever been and its all over the center...and it oppresive. However, I need to do my best until I can't take it anymore and quit or I find something different. The hours are very hard. It's challenging.

I'm having to adjust to the fact that in just a few months we are going to have 3 kids. I was completely satisfied with 2 kids. God must have something else planned for us and so we are being blessed with another child. My heart hurts though because I know people who desperately want to have children and they are struggling with infertility issues. I don't understand why God does what he does and causes different people to struggle with different things I just have to trust that He is Sovereign and knows what everyone needs.

I'm also struggling physically with how I am feeling. This pregnancy is hitting me hard. I suffer from nausea and stomach pain and just general fatigue constantly, my hormones are also really racing and I am more emotional and a little less tolerant of things than I usually am. I'm also struggling with my attitude towards the people I love the most. It's really hard.

We're trying to work together as a family to make life better and to make some big decisions. I'm looking forward to the months ahead and I am challenged and frustrated at the same time.

1 comment:

Jason Hughes said...

Well, congrats on the new child coming your way! And I do hope work gets better for you--working in what seems a poisonous environment is always depressing, but I know you will make the best of it--you always have! Much love to you and yours!