Needing to Adjust

I'm having to make some adjustments right now.

I need to make an attitude adjustment toward things.

My job is not what I was hoping for it to be. I am not doing what I had initially interviewed for when I went in. The scheduling and things are different than any other childcare facility that I have worked. It's the starkest place I have ever been and its all over the center...and it oppresive. However, I need to do my best until I can't take it anymore and quit or I find something different. The hours are very hard. It's challenging.

I'm having to adjust to the fact that in just a few months we are going to have 3 kids. I was completely satisfied with 2 kids. God must have something else planned for us and so we are being blessed with another child. My heart hurts though because I know people who desperately want to have children and they are struggling with infertility issues. I don't understand why God does what he does and causes different people to struggle with different things I just have to trust that He is Sovereign and knows what everyone needs.

I'm also struggling physically with how I am feeling. This pregnancy is hitting me hard. I suffer from nausea and stomach pain and just general fatigue constantly, my hormones are also really racing and I am more emotional and a little less tolerant of things than I usually am. I'm also struggling with my attitude towards the people I love the most. It's really hard.

We're trying to work together as a family to make life better and to make some big decisions. I'm looking forward to the months ahead and I am challenged and frustrated at the same time.

Yesterday and now Today

Yesterday I called in sick for work...today I am feeling better.

Yesterday I needed to rest....today I think the rest worked...I'm feeling better.

Yesterday life was less hectic with me being home alone...today we have stuff to do...

Yesterday I was exhausted...today I am just tired...but being pregnant I'm constantly tired.

Yesterday is over...today is here. I am going to enjoy today!

Ode to Potato Chips

Thank you Lays for making Classic Potato Chips

Thank you for the salty goodness that meets a need.

Thank you that my morning sickness feels better when I am eating you.

Thank you that the greasy residue doesn't wreak havoc with my stomach.

I'm enjoying you.

It's making me feel better.

Another great way to enjoy a potato.

Monday Morning Sickness Woes

I'm so thankful that there isn't smellovision on television.

I'm thankful that perfume can mask alot of stenches.

I've discovered that smells are really bad right now.

I'm hoping that lunch isn't too stinky today.

I'm feeling lousy!

I don't want to go to work at all....but I must.

I really hate Morning sickness

It's the Weekend!

It's the weekend!

I don't have to go to work!

I get to go to lunch with friends!

I get to hang out with my family!

We have stuff that has to be done but I have time to do it!

I'm looking forward to relaxing!

I'm looking forward to resting!

I'm looking forward to being HOME!

Quack, Quack

Hear that quacking?

Right there...here it...I do....what can it be?

That would be the Jonathan's getting all their ducks in a row and starting the process of changing our family tree.

Dan and I(more me but Dan too) made some big mistakes in our 20's regarding our finances. We made bad choices and dug ourselves a pretty big hole. Now we are trying to fix that. We are trying to make better choices and we have enrolled in the Financial Peace University class at our church this semester. We are going to make conscience choices now so that later we can be at peace with our financial situation.

We have a fire lit under us, we have goals in mind. We are looking forward to changing our financial future. It will be hard, there will need to be changes made but I know we can do, we must do it...we need to grow up, make tough decisions and work together to make our life the way we want it.

Pray for us as we go through this process...we probably will need it.

What a Day!

Thunder was crashing and rumbling last night.

Alarm clocks were blaring and radioing early.

Husband is going in early to get some much needed studying done so he's moving around earlier than normal.

Me...I'm trying to sleep and it's not working...so I am/was tired this morning.

I get the kiddos off to school and misplace part of Jaron's lunchbox and find it as he needs to be walking out the door to the bus...stressful times.

I'm trying to get things in place for the sitter and make sure the new schedule we are implementing is clear.

I almost leave late for work...forgetting to pack myself a lunch in the process...I figure I will buy lunch today, and off I go.

Halfway to work I realize that I have Jaron's car seat in my car and Daddy is taking him to Karate tonight.

I decide that I will run home on my lunch break...if I remember.

Work is crazy and lots of people are gone and so I have to cover a class that I'm not familiar with and I go to lunch a little late.

Stop at Chipotle on my home...so yummy...gives me heartburn and isn't the greatest for feeling sick to the stomach. Probably shouldn't have eaten while driving.

No specials teachers this afternoon...really not good for bathroom breaks.

Last kid isn't picked up till 6:25 and so I can't leave work till 6:30.

Mix up with Karate, go and pick up Janea, chicken out from walking in to take pictures, head home to eat.

Eating pizza for dinner...makes me sick to my stomach.

Still have to do laundry...Dan's out of pants...feeling tired, looking forward to rest.

Thankful homework is done, the boys are getting home and I can sleep soon.

Oh to start it all over again tomorrow...so thankful that it is not going to rain tonight!

Kicking my Butt!

This pregnancy is kicking my butt.

I'm exhausted! Frequently feel nausous, have a general yuckiness to my tastebuds and at times I feel like I could sleep standing up.

Working is also taking a chore on me. My hours feel incredibly long since I don't get off work until 6:30. The schedule is more taxing than I anticipated. I've spoken to one of the directors and I am hoping that she is able to find me slighly better hours.

Our due date is April 25th. However, both of the older kids were early so I am anticipating an earlier delivery...we will have to see, each baby seems to tell me when they want to come so I don't know what will happen.

The kids are excited, especially Jaron. He is looking forward to being the older brother as well as the younger brother. He keeps asking if its a boy or a girl...and yes I will be finding out...

Well that's a little of what is going on with me...I'll keep you all posted on how I'm feeling and how big I start to get...

Where were you?

Where were you 9 years ago?

What do you remember from that day?

I was getting ready for school, I was student teaching the first gradein St. Charles Illinois and we had on the Today Show and I remember stopping to watch the coverage when the first plane had hit and we didn't know what was going on. Then we watched as the 2nd plane went into the other tower. I was in shock, didn't know what was going on at all and at the same time I was mesmorized but what I was seeing. I had to leave very soon after the second plane hit and the staff meeting that morning was subdued.

The day was different, the students were mostly oblivious but we did have some absent that day and more were picked up early by parents. The PE and Art teachers were able to watch coverage throughout the day and kept us posted on what was happening. During lunch we ate and watched TV set up on a table in the Teacher's lounge which wasn't ever there...we witnessed the 2nds tower collapse and sat just dumbfounded by what had happened. I remember being concerned for my family and my young daughter and what the future would hold.

It was such an intense day. I was glued to the TV for days after as well and wanted to know all kind of information about what was going on.

I hope I never forget what happened that day. I want to understand, I want to never forget, I want to remember to say Thank You to those who risk their lives to save others.

Thank you to everyone who helps to keep AMERICA safe! I appreciate you!

Surprise!

Thursday

It's Thursday. I know its Thursday but I really wish it was Friday!

Tonight Jaron has his 2nd Karate Class...he's so excited.

Tomorrow is my first payday at the new job...I'm so excited!

Janea is thinking of joining either newspaper club or Drama club...I'm thinking Newspaper...so is she but she has a back up plan!

The kids are settling into a school routine pretty good...we have some tweaking to do but that should happen soon.

Busy week...and a busy schedule...

My Karate Kid

Jaron has been BEGGING for 3 months to take Karate classes. We were going to get him started during the summer but with me not working and not sure what I would be doing on the job front we waited until I had a job to get him signed up. We also weren't sure what type of class to do, where to go, that whole thing...so he brought home a sheet from school about a class being offered through the local community center at one of the local schools. BINGO! That's the ticket....that is the class for him. That way he can start and then we can go from there and determine if its a good fit for him.

Last night was the first class...HE LOVED IT! Looks like it's something he enjoys and we will see how he does as the weeks go on!

Thoughts

So I've become a little erratic in my blogging.

It's not that I don't want to blog or don't have stuff to blog about...but I am literally so tired that when I get to blogging, my thoughts get randomized and rambling and I think that it would be boring.

I am still here...I haven't died...I have some big things to share soon....

Till later friends,